These days are testing times for me, mentally. I would love to talk about it but there’s only so much I can talk to my friends or loved ones without sounding like a broken recorder and I also understand that there’s really nothing much they can do for me except to listen or spend some time with me. Perhaps I’ll feel better writing it out and let this serves as a record for my future self.
I’m still waiting for my UK Spouse Visa to be approved. “It’ll take 60 working days.” said the guy who assisted me in the application, repeatedly. I’ve got an email that said my application has been sent on Feb 11th 2022, so if we add 60 working days to that… That’d mean I should get a reply by May 11th 2022.
That’s nothing more than an estimation, but at least I’ve an actual date to aim at and also that’d mean I’ve about another month of waiting to go. It feels like I’m not making any reasonable progress with my life. Time’s stood still and I’m only walking on the same spot. It’s sort of like Bill Murray’s classic film, “Groundhog Day”.
The weather these days, is not helping either. The afternoons are often gloomy and rainy. It’s seldom the kind of heavy downpour which completely deters one from heading out. The rain we’ve been experiencing is usually just heavy enough to put you on the border whether to proceed out or not. Accompanying the rain, is thunder that’s continuously rumbling, as the sky is constantly taunting me as I remain indecisive at home. Might not seems like a big problem to some, but there are times I really don’t want to stay at home.
I guess I shouldn’t be a complete downer and post something all negative on my blog. To look at the bright side of things, now I’ve time and, thankfully, the discipline, to hit the gym in the morning 4 to 5 times every week. Working out really does make me feel better, with the release of endorphins. During that 1.5 to 2 hours in the gym, I glad to say that I’m actually enjoying myself. With my mind shut off and earbuds on, it’s nice to switch off and just work up a sweat. It’s something I’d like to continue doing for as long as possible.
The result from all the lifting I’ve done in the gym, is that I’ve packed on some muscles. Finally, I’ve realised how difficult is it to grow muscles and it really comes down to being consistent with your effort.
I’ve also been trying to pick up reading. I supposed like everything else, it’s the same for reading as well; the more you do it, the easier it gets. After the long hiatus from reading, it’s difficult to stay focused on the words, my eyes will wander off to other part of the page. There are also times where after reading a sentence, I realised I’ve only read the words individually but my mind didn’t process anything from them as a whole sentence, so I ended up going through the sentence again. Slow process, but I’ll get there.
Anyway, that’s about all for now. Thanks for reading!